The Spark Diary - Side Effect of Love - 20140808

The slight pain in my chest

Don't know why exactly

The side effect of feeling for someone

Always makes me want to run away

After being in love with someone

I always lose myself unconsciously

Becoming no longer independent 

My heart, becomes dependent

I've been trying so hard to learn 

How to live alone without another person 

How to be myself again

But it is changing now again

after I fall for someone 

Drama Queen

That is how you describe me

Feel a bit sad 

I am just like that in your mind after all

Wanting to cry in all of a sudden

In this a bit chilling morning

My heart is knotted, 

My eyes are getting wet...

The Spark Diary - The Night of Pureness - 20140804

They all said you were just a boy,

They all said you were nice, but just too young for me.

Looked at you, I looked at two.

The one in their eyes, 

The one in mine.

Your shyness and youth, that was the boy they saw,

Your stability and depth, that was the man in my eyes.

Your eyes, your lips, the way you stared at me.

Your chest, your temperature, the way you held me tight.

Not being blind, but not being sophisticated, 

This second, I simply wanted it to fall asleep next to you.

Next second, I just wanted it to wake up next to you,

Listening to you whispering in my ear 

'Good Morning, Beautiful.'

The Spark Diary - Wednesday Afternoon - 20140723

Ben Howard's voice comfortingly singing to my ears
His finger tips running on the strings
Steadily but gently


Wednesday afternoon
Your smiles, your looks, displaying one after one
The rhythm his fingers playing
Each word you've said
Running through my head without a pause



The breeze brushing the long hair
You've never touched

'I don't mind'
Once you said

Your message, simple and direct
Don't mind why this hair is saved
Don't mind if this hair is cut or kept


You think purely
You stare at 'me'




That pair of cleanly deeply  meaningful eyes
Looking through clouds to the mind
Looking at me, but not just looking at me
Your exploration, your curiosity
Those eyes smile slightly


As it turns out,

This is the journey belonging to you


Me
Is your journey

The Spark Diary - Check Point - 20140721

Heart slightly hurts, that dessert at our check point

'Don't be so sweet. ' whispered silently 

You, sweet you, my heart held so tight

30 days and nights, like the rainy dawn, like the starry night 

Under the blanket of mist...

wrapping me up, little by little

The sound of your laughter, spilling the neat spreadsheet, 

The look of your anger, displaying on the centre of my crap-work screen

The words of yours here and there 

Since when, have sewn a soft net

My heart being wrapped... 

That was warm, that was sweet, that was a little pain

What could I offer?

Wanted it, but couldn't want it...

Wanted to, but couldn't give to...

The feeling, that was forbidden to say

The yearning, that was no need to spit 

700-mile-away you,

Feel it?

Feel me.